Grumble

Most rides on Becca are good, if not great. Ever so often we have a bad one. I'm not saying she is misbehaving, just "off". Last night worked like that. We had a short, nonresponsive, kind of pissy ride. So I quit. I was feeling cranky, too. Not a good combo.

I feel like I'm wasting my summer. I only have one month left. I'm still waiting on a larger girth. Regardless, I have no good spot to ride. There is no flat area. The cracks in the ground could swallow a small child. Safety is a huge issue. Not to mention I have no one around if there were to be an accident. Shoot me. After all I've worked for I still am not there. I do have ideas about the arena placement. It is a huge job that requires more than just one person in triple digit heat. I have to be patient. It's hard to do. My horses are aging and not in training. I feel time passing me by. Just how long will I be able to enjoy the horses? I can't afford to keep waiting. I can't afford a new truck and trailer to haul the horses for lessons to who knows where. What am I thinking? Why am I way the heck down here with no horse people? Kick me. Hard.